New Wave of Understanding...

SPOP 1- PUENTEMON: We CHOOSE YOU.

Gold Year has now officially ended. Royal Year is Here.

Learning new things every day.
Amazing staffers, amazing spoppers.
Everyone felt it. You could see it in our eyes.

The staffers felt what SPOP really is.
The spoppers felt what college really is.

Never stop feeling it.

Knock You Down

The past week has been so amazing in terms of lifting me up and putting me down at the same time. And after I get put down, it hurts. It’s frustrating. It stings so bad. But just temporarily… because there is that reminder that someone else can do what I can’t.

But that’s okay.
It’s about being the best at who you are. And with friends who have different strengths, we can conquer the world.

Amazing

"It's amazing, I'm the reason / Everybody fired up this evening / I'm exhausted, barely breathing / Holding on to what I believe in / No matter what you'll never take that from me / My reign is as far as your eyes can see"
- Kanye West

I've been soul searching a lot these past few days
About who I am and how I navigate through this maze
Called college. UCI. University.
And I heard Kanye's lyrics come to me.
It's amazing, I'm the reason
Everybody fired up this evening.

I used to not be.
I used to be weak.
But somebody saw something in me.

And looking at who I am now, I am so happy to be
What others thought they saw in me.
I'm amazing, yeah I'm all that.
For me, the world puts out a welcome mat.

And so I put out a welcome mat for others
Make em feel like its a place full of brothers
And sisters... so they feel like they belong
Cuz it hurts when you dont, it feels wrong

I felt wrong once.
I felt out of place.
I felt like no one knew my name or cared for my face.
Now I'm amazing.
Now I'm all that.
But its my duty to make others feel welcome, its a fact.
It's a part of my life
What I gotta do
I gotta help others make their life debut
No matter what you'll never take that from me
My reign is as far as your eyes can see.

Embraceable You

I'm sitting in Starbucks listening to this song
It has a good message but I'm feeling all wrong
about "Embraceable You"

I guess its cuz I can't find a guy
Who will take my heart and touch it to the sky
that "Embraceable You"

And a hug or a kiss will do wonders to my soul
Even just that thought puts me on a roll
for that "Embraceable You"

But I won't get my hopes up, I'll sit and wait
Cuz I think that guy will come, it's fate
My "Embraceable You"

I forgot.

it seems, yes it seems that i've kind of forgot.
that i have this tool that i used to write in a lot.
but now my thoughts are less obscure and more clear
the point of this i really wish to hear

i guess its cuz i got people who really listen
who if they disappeared i would certainly be missen
listening to every little thing i say
thinking, questioning, "wait up.. hey, hey."
i feel like this is useful when i really cant speak
its useful when i'm inhibited and meek.
i'm pretty loud now and not really afraid
cz whats the worst that can happen. i dont make it, i miss the grade.
but lifes about the experience
and attitude the difference maker.

keep your chin up.

Lessons Learned from 2008 (and the first few days of 2009)

Know Your Limits.

Push Your Limits. We grow the most when we push our limits.

Be Yourself. Be proud of who you are because who you are the best you can be.

Go Big or Go Home. If you’re not going to do something well, don’t do it at all. Your standard should be your best.

No Regrets. Life is here and now. Everything you do makes an impact. Make that impact a great one.

Home

Things are always weird when I’m at home
I enjoy myself, chill and sometimes roam
To places that are close and I remember dearly
Run into people who are different and often nearly
What I want to remember about arcadia the least
The reason I traveled to Irvine, far far east
Well not really that far, but at least away
Because today is the only day
I’m going to remind myself of what could have been
That crazy spring semester when there was no win
In sight for me, left and right
And my will was beat, I could not fight
With the way things were going I lost all sight
Of who I was, and all my might
Now I know that success does not define me
That the direction I go or what is behind me
Does not say anything about my values and my worth
That me is not discernable from my parents and my birth
That I am who I am and no one else can measure
That no one can take away my life, liberty or pleasure
Because these I hold strong and my pride I hold high
Because I know that I can touch the sky
You can judge me, and rank me on a scale
But I am Sarah, and I prevail.

[[I went to Starbucks yesterday, and got let down by a hs friend. That wasn’t that big of a deal – she apologized… but more was the people I saw at the Starbucks. It was the 3 year younger than me version of what I wanted to be in hs. In hs, I applied for this competitive team, and didn’t make it and it hurt. That same time, the April-May before my senior year, I was rejected from something else, and didn’t get elected to another thing. I kept suffering blows and I guess that visit to Starbucks reminded me of the hurt I felt, and how no matter how I tried in Arcadia I was never the best. Irvine has taught me otherwise… that my best is good enough. I wrote this poem while at the Starbucks to try to reaffirm who I am and a reminder that in college, I can’t think the way I did in hs… that my character is defined by my successes and failures. Even if I try out for something or run for something and don’t get it, I am still who I am]]